Devin,
I remember the first time I saw you. We were practicing for the Saint Patrick's Day parade. I was in the 8th grade then and I had no idea how you and your love would impact my life.
Band camp my freshman year brought on nervous feelings. There would always be butterflies in my stomach every time I saw you. I remember our many thumb war matches and how you would always let me win. I was so happy just by getting to hold your hand.
I was the luckiest girl in the world the day you asked me to be your girlfriend. I still can't believe you chose me... I was shy and quiet, nothing extraordinary... but I'm forever grateful God put you in my life. In the eight months and ten days of our relationship we lived a thousand lifetimes and made the sweetest memories together. I wouldn't trade them for anything. I am so happy that I got to be that special someone in your life.
We spent every second humanly possible together and we had some really fun times. Everyday I am reminded of time well spent with you, of laughs and kisses, tears and hugs; of saying I love yous and starring deep into each others souls. You were my first love, Devin, and no one can replace you.
On May 15th of 2003 I woke up that morning with an odd feeling in my bones (I always told you to listen to my bones, remember?). I felt that something wasn't right. When I got to school that morning you were already there waiting on me, but I still couldn't shake that odd feeling. The day went on as usual. We'd sneak a kiss here and there before class. We would always cuddle together in that corner in the band room before class - I miss being in your arms. After you had walked me to my bus and kissed me goodbye I remember getting this strong urge to go after you. Little did I know that after you had disappeared inside the high school that would be the last time I would ever see you or get to touch you again.
When you called me that evening I told you not to go to the movies. I told you to stay home and go sometime else instead. You didn't listen. I remember getting to tell you "I love you" for the last time and making sure I said goodbye. That was the end. Then God took you home.
I don't know how I've made it through these past four years without you, but I know you’ve always been in my heart. I take you with me wherever I go and I know you are watching over me from
You have been my inspiration and my will to move on. You will always hold a very special place in my heart. I love you, Devin Hamilton, and I always will. I know you didn't leave me because you wanted to, you left because God called you home. I can't wait to be reunited with you and to see your wonderful smiling face again. Words can't express how much I miss you. You have changed my life forever. I will always love you.
Yours for a little while,
Kendra